Today:

* I dyed my hair red.der brown (auburn)


* We have a cleaning lady named Ruby


* Ruby used Murphy's Oils soap on our floors and the house smells so clean and yummy


* I am grateful for Ruby. I am grateful for any help around the house. I am grateful for nice people.


* My hair dresser noticed I was frail and so have I. Nervousness is not a diet I recommend. Thankfully, I am getting less anxious, but I am trying to beef up again. Hence, steak dinner last night, frequent DQ stops, and the insurgence of regular soda consumption. I am eating a lot more fruits and nuts too (I'm not going to go down the crap shoot).


*I've had red wine the past two nights 1. because I don't like to waste wine 2. and most importantly it calms me down. I only have 1-1 1/2 cups. It's good for your heart, and I don't start drinking until right before or after the little ones go to bed.


*I can't stop thinking about my thumb and index finger tremors, spasms, and twitches (not all together, it happens sporadically). I feel like I have a tiny electric current between my fingers that won't settle down, it's unnerving to be punny about it. I get an EMG in a couple weeks and I'm not excited about needle prodding, but I hope the data shows that it's something benign. I just want the green light to relax, ya know?


* Not to mention my chronic knee pain, iyiyi. Why do I Feel so old at 29?